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Moving this over to the multi blog since it’s more relevant there.
I’m not attacking. I just really don’t understand it, and as a disabled person back home it struck me as really quite odd outside of a mental health context, I guess? Maybe it can be related back to multiplicity. I’m not sure. I’m trying to look at this from a perspective of how I would feel if someone I knew back home walked up to me and then came out (so to speak) as identifying as someone who had no leg function, all the while I’m the one confined to a chair. I think I’d honestly feel a little offended (which was very visibly my gut reaction out here as well).
I should probably have also been clearer about how I identify out here. I’m entirely able-bodied. I have little to no issue using these legs, which is exactly why the experience is so disconcerting (and new) for me. I hadn’t even heard about transableism until…a week ago? Something like that.
The problem in explaining my experiences at all is that you have to suspend reality and acknowledge other worlds (or maybe just subjective worlds this mind’s made up) in order to really have me explain my experiences here versus back home. I don’t have much of a sense of my own personal, physical body when I’m out here. My legs don’t hurt. I don’t have difficulties walking.
When I’m home, I’m not aware of anything out here, or this body, just my own physical limitations and life. And it’s pretty separate from this one.
Again, the issue is that, from a logical standpoint, where I come from and how I identify there is relatively moot since it can’t be proven with any sort of reliable evidence. I’m not saying people can’t choose to accept my experiences and honor them as real. I’m just saying that, because I can’t prove them, I don’t expect it of anyone.
My own personal blog is meant to be a look into my life back home, hardly connected with this blog out here (except via the link on the main page, considering I don’t link to this one on my other blog). That’s why I bring up my wheelchair status and personal health history. Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe it’s misleading. I don’t honestly know at this point.
Whatever the case, I suppose it’s time for me to go dig through some old Psych books and see if I can educate myself and gain a more informed view before I respond further on this since I’m clearly out of my league in terms of knowledge on the subject.
-Will
Ah, sorry, I didn’t mean to imply you were attacking anyone. Just that some of the responses I’ve seen to transabled/ethnic/etc. identities here on Tumblr most definitely were, and it bothers me that a lot of people who make a big show of being accepting and tolerant are the ones who are reacting most violently to this “new” set of identities.
I also did not mean to out you. I honestly didn’t know you were keeping the blogs separate. I truly apologize and I’ll delete my message if you want. Yikes. Sorry.
(Source: whatfreshhellisthis)
